I have never hit my quota because I never cared to hit my quota. I cared about it in the sense that like, “cool, I’ll make money;” but never enough to actually put in the work. Like now. I don’t actually want to be writing this blog post. I’d rather be finishing my Game of Thrones rewatch right now…and I’m on season 8 where shit really starts to go downhill. But here I am–putting in the work.
I needed a fat attitude adjustment.
I became an SDR with a year of acting school left, and I’ll embarrassingly admit that I thought that once I finished acting school, I’d magically “make it.” That someone was going to discover me, that I’d make one short film and all of a sudden become a film star. I pictured myself on Late Night making Seth Meyers laugh.
Without sounding like a douche, I thought my job was temporary and I was so obviously meant for more.
I graduated from acting school 4 years ago. I have made a handful of small projects with friends and the closest I’ve been to Seth Meyers was getting to be in the studio audience…and I’m still an SDR.
So what’s the adjustment I’m making?
I’m beginning to appreciate where I am instead of feeling like I’m too good for the life I’m in.
Because the truth is that I’m not. I was making myself MISERABLE, always fighting being at work and having to work.
This is not me giving in, this is just me realizing that it’s important to learn how to put in the work WHILE dreaming big. I’m reconciling that it’s not one or the other. I started working at 6a this morning. It’s 2p now as I’m writing this; and then I’ll treat myself to an episode of Game of Thrones before I start my two hour creative block this evening.
And I have to say, as much as I LOVE watching TV. I feel so much better about myself having written this when I didn’t want to :)
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